Everyone has their strengths and weaknesses and my weakness is definitely food. I don't talk a lot about what I eat on the blog because, quite frankly, there isn't much to envy over here. I'm a bad eater. There I admit it.
I don't consume nearly enough fruits or vegetables. I like carbs and I can't even imagine a life without cheese or bread. While I do try to control my portions and therefore my calories, I don't restrict any food group from my diet. I don't have much of a sweet tooth so I'm typically able to avoid sweets. Sweets definitely aren't my weakness, but salty snacks are my Achilles heel.
Having said that, last night I binged. I ate chips and dip. I had the container with me on the couch and the bag of chips in hand and I ate and ate and ate. The whole time I ate, I sat there and asked myself why I was doing it. I pictured my thighs as I see them when I look in the full length mirror (with disgust). I asked myself if it was worth it, and even though the answer was no, I kept eating. And then (as if that wasn't bad enough) I went and got two chocolate chip cookies.
To be honest, the thing that makes me sad is that I didn't even enjoy it. I didn't enjoy it because the whole time I was eating it I was worried about what kind of effect it was going to have on my body (outwardly). I kept telling myself to get to a place where I could say, "#$%# it" and eat it AND enjoy it, but it never happened.
The thing is, however, today is a new day. I'm not going to sit and beat myself up over it. It's over and done with. I'm really just a girl who likes to eat, who likes to workout, and does enjoy feeling good when I look in the mirror and like what I see. I have good days and I have bad days and struggle like every single other "normal" person.
Life isn't about being perfect, life is about ENJOYING every moment good or bad. I wish I would have taken the time to enjoy myself. Was what I did last night healthy? No! Is it the end of the world? No! Am I perfect? Absolutely not! I'm not trying to be perfect. I'm just me and I don't eat oats in a jar.
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Thanks to everyone who entered the Mom Swim Bike Run Plank Challenge. There is still plenty of time to enter if you haven't already. All the details are on this post. It's so very exciting to see everyone sharing their pictures and all the varying times. I'm still hoping to get a lot more entries, so hop to it everyone and get those plank pictures posted.
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